So many times growing up I moved and I hated it, but yet now as I look back on all the moves, it's made me who I am. It was tough, And at the age of 26, it's still tough.
Now as a mom, I think it's tougher to make my kids move. This is the second move that my daughter really knows what is going on, and this time...we are or have gotten rid of a ton and I mean a ton of stuff. It's really hard to see her so upset over stuff. We are trying to take along the things that make it home, but have such limited space.
We've had a moving sale the last three days. We have the cutest little princess bike with training wheels, that we bought for her when she was two. She LOVES to ride her bike, She is just starting to get the hang of how to slow down and use her breaks.
Today, I watched my 4 year old have a very grown up moment when we sold her bicycle. She didn't even cry. (she misses it and is sad, but is okay with it, "cause we can get another one in Indonesia.) But I did. Even as I write this I have tears in my eyes. Watching something my kid loves so much walk away.
I know this decision to go to Indonesia is what God has for us without a doubt. But watching how it effects my kids is hard. I think one of my biggest things is not wanting my kid to hate me or God because of us selling a lot of our stuff and moving to Indonesia. I pray that God will give me the wisdom on how to be a loving mother during this time, and to be able to explain in a simple way why it is so important for us to go!
We've been asked why we are getting rid of so much stuff? Why don't you just store it? Well, one is limited storage space, and two, most of it deteriorates over time. Thirdly, I can't take it to heaven with me! I'd rather sell my stuff here, go to Indonesia, and have more brothers and sisters in Christ in eternity worship God around HIS throne. I do this for God's glory not mine.
Is it tough, YES! But I wouldn't have it any other way.....
3 comments:
In some strage way I really related to this post. It is not as if I am selling all I have to go to the mission field, but God is changing my plans into His and I feel like I am watching part of my self slipping away. It must be better for me that I let it go, but at the same time it is hard to see leave. It is so crazy how God works words and situations together. Even though we are going through differant things it helps to know I am not alone in having to let things go. Thanks for sharing. Praying for you.
I feel your pain. I also hate it too when people would give you gifts for your move. Once someone gave me a plant to remember them by. HMM.... What is a missionary going to do with a plant? Anyways, I'm sure these people had good intentions. My sis hated cleaning out her wardrobe when she was a teenager. So she would have me take a picture of her in the outfit before giving it away. LOL I wonder what she thinks about that time in her life. Anyways if it helps Arika any maybe you can take a picture of it to help her remember something by.
Awe!
Emma moved nine times in three years. It was very hard on her. I think you are doing the best thing by letting her see the stuff get sold.
We once got rid of her wagon during a move and didn't say anything to her. I didn't realize how tramatic that would be to her.
We are praying for you. Love you!
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