Sure has been awhile. Hoping now that we are a little more settled in here in Indonesia that I can blog a little more.
I want to share with you a journal entry so you have an idea of what I've been going through. Thanks for reading.
Friday, July 31, 2009 We arrived on Wednesday afternoon. I was in a fog. I wanted to take as much in and remember as much as I can. I just remember driving through the city of Jakarta thinking I should be trying to take everything in..yet fighting just to keep myself awake so I could start making the time change. Got a good night of sleep and was ready for the next day. Went for a small walk on Thursday around the neighborhood. It is so different. Driving on the opposite side of the road than I am use to...motorcycles everywhere.
Feel like you are going to be clipped by one driving by you, but yet for here it is so normal. Just hung out and talked to Amberlynne and Sheila...didn’t do much else. (Two of the ladies who arrived the same time we did!) Woke up bright and early this morning to the sound of the Call to prayer for the Muslims. Kinda funny how the dogs howled along with it. Yet so weird to think that so many are living in darkness. Feel like I was hit with a tidal wave of emotions today. Just tired of everything being so different. Not really sure what is bothering me. Not sure if all my emotions and goodbyes are starting to catch up....along with not being one place very long in the past 3 months. Scared of what my house will be like. I don’t want to have too high of expectations and be disappointed, but yet hoping it will be nice. How do I pin point what exactly is bothering me. I can’t stop crying. I’m so happy to finally be here, yet have so many mixed emotions.I have to remind myself this is normal...I’m not the only one to have gone through this, is going through this, or has gone through this. God I need you more than ever right now. You are my rock, and my strength. I miss my family, friends, and my "normal" everyday. It’s okay to have things different. It will just take time to adjust. Lord, there is a reason we are here. For your glory. The funny thing is, I have no desire to back to the states right now...I don’t hate it here. I just think everything is catching up to me. I never to much time to stop and work through all the see you laters and goodbyes I said to friends and family. I think I’ll like it here. I’m so excited that this is where we are. Just have a lot of adjusting to do. Thank you Lord for your faithfulness and goodness. This is all for your glory not mine.
Be glorified!!!!! I feel so awful for taking Lincoln away from his cousin Landon. They are such good buddies and miss each other so much. Be glorified in all I do. I know home is wherever we are. I feel so bad getting mad a Jim for the smallest things this morning...gotta love being an over emotional female.
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